First Session

I know this is the next step for me
But do I really need therapy

A chair too big a room too wide
I want to run I want to hide
But still I sit though my hands are weak
Afraid of the truth in the words I speak

If I speak aloud will I breathe again
If I tell my truth will it ease the pain
Silence never saved me silence held me fast
Maybe words can heal me maybe this will last

I say I'm fine but the mask feels thin
A storm still rages deep within
The weight I drag has chained me down
Could this small room turn it around

If I speak aloud will I breathe again
If I trust these walls will I break the chain
I'm not asking for miracles not begging to be cured
Just a hand to steady me someone reassured

I miss who I was before I lost me

If I speak aloud I might breathe again
If I tell the truth I might feel again
Silence never saved me silence fades away
Maybe here in this room I will find my way

Maybe I belong here
Maybe I can start